I grew up with parents who weren't religious at all but they did allow me to participate in religious things in school - scripture. My grandparents were very religious and through them, I became religious too.
I attended Sunday school, bible study groups, Christian kids group activities, and sometimes mass with them. I was always very fond of the idea of someone who loved me enough to see past all that I had done wrong and someone who was always there looking over me.
Even today it brings a great sense of calm and comfort into my heart. My faith hasn't always been strong at there have been many times I have found myself questioning why God still cares and forgives me in the times I truly didn't believe I deserved it.
Sure, I have questioned many things throughout life even more when I have been hurt or lost someone close to me. But somehow I have managed to find my way back to God every time. I have so many stories where I have been saved and I don't mean as in found "saved" I mean my life was saved or spared.
That is what keeps God real in my mind. The times I have prayed on my knees and somehow things have just fallen into place. The signs that appear from me only have thoughts. Over the years I have come to understand prayers don't need to be spoken out loud to count.
It can be the small conversations you have in the car or the thoughts in your mind as you lay silently in your bed. He hears them all. My faith is everything to me and I wouldn't be the woman I am today without it. I am blessed in ways I never imagined and the isn't a single thing I am not grateful for.
I say that in a way that I mean good and bad. Everything God has placed before me has either helped me grow or taught me a very valuable lesson. At times it is hard to see that especially when I am emotional but once the dust settles I see more of the picture than before.
I don't preach the good Lord to people but love being around people with similar views and also people I can learn things from. I have a hard time understanding the bible and it's not from lack of trying. I used to do readings with my grandmother but since she passed away I haven't done too much reading at all.
I am the kind of woman who needs to understand what I am reading and without a significant person in my life to explain it to me, it makes it very difficult for me to continue. With all that being said religion is a huge foundation of who I am, how I raise my children, and what kind of people I want in my life.
"Anyone who has God in their heart will always have mine too. Any good man or woman needs faith not just in the bad times but the good times too."
Blessed Heart...
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