Faithful Tears - Personal blog of Trisha Rapley, Australian Author.

I was never really sure in the beginning if God ever heard the cries from my heart through prayers until I saw signs my eyes couldn't ignore, not to mention the way the Holy Spirit overcame my body, not just while praying, but through the circumstances in which my prayers were answered.

Over time, my prayers have changed, somewhat expanded into prayers I can barely control. Spiritual growth is something so foreign to me, and it can only be understood if you've truly lived through it.

Something within my heart and soul died the moment I asked Jesus into my heart, but I have found over the years that my faith has been, I've died once again and over and over again.

Through different circumstances and situations, both Worldly and Godly, I have become another version of myself, a better version, and I have to tell you it felt like pain, suffering, but it was a mere release of the old me.

I grieved her like I've grieved all losses with honest intention and compassion because she was an important part of life, but also my growth, both spiritually and soulfully.

It was only through the love of others that this occurred because while loving others, I was loving myself too. After all, a heart like mine heals through loving others, while taking care of them, and being everything I needed in my time of suffering.

So, I guess you could say the process in which I protected, loved, supported, cared, and sat with people contributed to the quality of the woman I am today. It was my love that healed me and the love of Jesus Christ.

I made myself needed when I didn't feel wanted, and it honestly was the best thing I could have done for myself when I didn't know how to take care of my own heart.

This I can only see now after the healing, on the other side of the darkness, we become after the trauma sets in, and let me tell you, no greater reward could outweigh the way I feel now knowing this.

It has been the journey just as much as the outcome of all situations and circumstances, but mostly it has been my love for Jesus and His forgiveness for me while putting others first.

I know I am forgiven for being stubborn, for choosing the long way round instead of His way for me, but somehow I know He knew the path I was going to take because I am His.

So, as I continue despite the odds this world throws at me, I'll pray for a clean Heart, Discernment, Forgiveness, Love, Peace, Understanding, but most importantly, the ability to love people the way Jesus loves them, and if that means being the portal that connects souls and hearts to Jesus, that's what I'll be and the place you'll always find me.

Between the Love I need and the Love of Jesus Christ for us all.

Faithful Tears - Personal blog of Trisha Rapley, Australian Author.

Faithful Tears - Personal blog of Trisha Rapley, Australian Author.