Not To Rush - Personal blog of Trisha Rapley, Australian Author.

I am a rusher of many things, fearing the outcome but also wanting the space between each destination to be one of peace and comfort, not uncertainty or darkness.

This; not a me thing, but rather a thing that happened to me through everything I went through, but something I need to work on because I deserve a good life too.

It’s a want of good things rather than bad, not a control thing because so many bad things happen in the in between of every destination, but it’s something worth healing, taking our time to sit with and not rush through.

This is why having God in my heart was such an important turning point. Before him, I needed and wanted control, not because it made things better but because it was the only way to protect my heart, or so I thought.

But in the end, it’s all God, what is best for us and what he wants for us, always and no matter how much we try to force something if it’s not for us, he will show us.

Suffering was my friend for the longest time. This was purely because I suffered without Him, without Him leading, and my heart and soul were on fire for the most part because I was comfortable in my suffering.

It was familiar, and I had become so loyal to the process of my own self-destruction that I knew no other way or no other life before Jesus.

Now, I do lose my footing from time to time, stray away like some wild beast of an animal, not because I want to, but I become forgetful of the renewed, born-again person I am in Christ.

And it takes time the learning new ways, the grasping of a love so pure, so forgiving that at times you must remember your worth in that love.

I fall short every day, and despite my best efforts, some days I still sin. I seek forgiveness every day and with absolute repentance because I want to be better, to do better, and to be the person I am in Christ more than anything else.

It’s not a love you want to rush, nor are the feelings that arise from the presence of it. It’s to be respected in a way that sees us setting aside less important things so it can grow within us.

It’s about making time for Jesus, not just when we need him - in the in-between parts of our journey, but through all stages, good and bad. The only thing we should ever be rushing to is Him and His love for us.

Not To Rush - Personal blog of Trisha Rapley, Australian Author.

Not To Rush - Personal blog of Trisha Rapley, Australian Author.