I am not sure where my strength and determination come from some days.
How I have managed to muster it up from absolutely nowhere shocks me at times.
I've been so close to throwing the towel in and something inside me just says "One more time."
Am I grateful. More than ever. I have this amazing part of my soul that senses my world crumbling around me but refuses to allow it to take me down.
It almost covers me with a shield while building me up. I won't lie in saying I have needed some time to cry, to scream, to be so alone, and to be just ok in the moment but I am coming out the other side.
"As the sunrises so will I." The future has very exciting times coming for me and although it is hard to get through the day at the moment I will continue.
There is a significant energy within me that is unbalanced and that is ok. I am aware of it and that is what matters. Being accepting of how things currently are in life helps me to process the next steps I need to take to keep myself moving forwards.
Do I know where I am headed. Hell no! I only know that it's forwards and that is the important thing.
I guess the saying goes "Heads down, bums up!"
Nothing great comes easy and I know I was never meant to be anything less than great. Please know I hope you are working on making yourself great too.
And in the silence that is between us right now please know that it hasn't and will never change how much I love you.
Take care always.
Unbalanced Soul...
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